it doesn't always have to be this world

nothing is true

on another day

when i cry
it's for another day
today
i lie here
and i lock the fear you gave me away
my tears full of memories
and full of wishes

when you said sadness
i felt daggers falling from your mouth
now
the pool of blood i sit in
is the same one i drowned in
years ago
the one i want to kiss goodbye
with my very last breath

i heard you when you called for me
and i am who i want to be
under three stitches
lies my passion
and my understanding
has been thrown away
i comb my hair
for that other day

when i said noise i meant nothing
and when i held you i hoped
but i never believed
become like a mother and son
where is the field
fall with me
it will never be today
too much is past

what is left is for tomorrow
the salt is in the jar
i feel a knowing
like a cold wind
the end

in another time

once i had a love
it was true love
all i have now is
the death of the blue

when i kissed you
i said that i loved you
when i fucked you
you said that you loved me

once i had a love
not just a so so love
no it was true love
all i have now
it's nothing
the death of the blue

as you like

hymn to youth and sidereality

i take your gift

your eyes, your touch

i look away you hold my back

uncertainty

inexperience

concern

freedom touches my thought

and rips the threads that hold me

inside the bliss of an unclear mind

i feel a spark creating juice

a longing to see what i haven't seen

and a longing for the comforting embrace

of the love i know

and as you cover me

i think of those with no history

of innocence and it's renewal

and as i go and turn

all paths that are lost to me

and pave the way for another

who will discover the truth

i turn again and see the more and the less

and where i am is always

as my mouth touches you

as i look at you

as i am on my knees

as i penetrate you

as i taste you

and as you take care of me

after a life in a day